Haven't posted in a while. Mostly since I have been using Brandie as a blog. I don't blog enough to have anonymous followers to say anything. I like a blog with feedback. Note to self: fix up blog. Anyways it is starting to feel weird talking to Brandie so much. We really aren't as good of friends as we used to be, even though shes pretty alright to talk to.

Life used to always be alright or even awesome, but it has been looking pretty glum lately. I don't know if glum is a word but it describes my situation. I have been procrastinating more than usual. I barely finished my essay on time. I turned in a rough draft as a final draft. I skipped basically all classes for the last 3 days. I was pretty productive on Wednesday when i took care of all my financial issues. I have quite a few financial issues. I am pretty worried right now, but I am not about to ask my parents for help. Hm, maybe blogging will motivate me to work harder. I should have gotten an apartment by now, but Paul's parents are being difficult and I am worried we will lose the apartment to somebody else.

There are many goals I have in my mind. Mostly those of self improvement. Physical improvement, motivation improvement, street fighter improvement, grade improvement, starcraft improvement, etc. I really have to prioritize better. I always subconsciously prioritize based on interest. Oh yeah, I still have tons of books to read, but i don't have any money. I have exactly enough for my deposit in my checkings right now.

After writing about my problems I feel like a little bitch. People have had worse. I smoke a lot now. I wouldn't be exaggerating if I told you I am high as often as I am sober. I am very lonely right now. I tell don that i would feel much better if I had a girl, though he doesn't know the specifics, he tells me I am crazy. But man, I would love a girl to love.

On likealittle.com (you can check it out if you dont know what it is) I posted about a girl over a month ago. She was real cute. I was locked out after taking a shower so I had to go down to the lobby to call for help. She was signing people in at the time. I wrote, "Kerr Hall, Female, Brunette You were cute. I really have to work on my first impressoins =/." What i didn't know was that she commented on my post the day after. She wrote, "were you that topless asian guy?" I never thought of actually getting replies on likealittle. It was always more of a way to release my admiration. I commented on the post, but I doubt she'll see it because it has been 50 days now.

My roommate is a massive tool. It really is the best way to describe him. He constantly makes tasteless asian jokes. He is the god of ignorance. He pretends to have sex all the time. It really is pretty lame. I don't have someone to talk to here. I really took girls for granted at home. I can't get any girls here. At least none that I like.

I am still pretty high. I need to go to sleep. My roommate sexed me out when hes not even having sex. Fuck me.