I feel like shit

Bleh did not eat enough to gym like that holy fuck. I feel like I'm going to throw up out of both ends. Been tired all week. Mlg just ended and now dreamhack is starting up. I don't think my sleep schedule is gonna get fixed anytime soon. I am moving my laptop to the restroom right now. While laying on the ground earlier I was thinking to myself, "Man I am such a bitch. I work out half as much as regular people and I feel like this?" I thought about how people all have so much potential and that if everyone did everything they could, the world would be a much better place. Then I thought about what my full potential would be like and what I could do. The obvious answer would be for me to focus on my strengths and do my best to contribute to the world. This thought brought me back to a decision I have been trying to make all year -- choosing a major. If I played to my strengths I would be majoring in math or physics and maybe there would be a chance for me to do something great, but then I would be giving up my happiness. What is more important, my happiness, or everyone else's? I feel like this question applies to many factors of my life right now and would make for a great theme in a coming of age story. Should I be trying to work as hard as possible and stop fooling around? It's obvious that going out all day does not have a positive effect on those around me, except maybe my friends. But I am living off of my parents now, so shouldn't I be working and trying to help them? If they did make a book about choosing your own happiness or the happiness of those important to you, the answer would probably some sort of balance, but it really is a lot harder than it sounds. I'm not sure why I got to thinking about all this, maybe its because I've been questioning the way I've been spending time with my friends. I have always been the type of person to maintain good standing within my group of friends. I'm not sure why but I always seem to somehow make them angry or annoyed of me. Sometimes I don't even know what I did. Because of this I hangout between multiple groups of friends, some of which never seem to have a problem with me. However, if my friendships are on and off like this, should I really be spending my time with them when I could be helping out with my family? I don't know. Maybe I am thinking too much.